Well- today I turned 26. This is the first year I have really noticed and felt older.
I would like to almost forget today happened.
It is not often that I let myself get sad or down, but today I was feeling it.
Another friend is having a baby.
One of many; ready to take that step and be a mom.
I am jealous.
When we first got married, I laughed it off- we were too young.
Then I felt a tiny pang of jealousy.
Now it is a full out, stab in the heart, overpowering sadness.
But are we ready?
Days like today when I am feeling mad, upset, and alone?
When we argue over who should take out the trash or feed the dogs?
Maybe not.
So, I feel old... steps behind the rest of the world and where I always envisioned myself.
Kara brightened my day with my favorite form of caffeine.
Michelle overdid and bought me my beloved bee stuff from Hobby Lobby so I can throw a cool picnic. And carbs for lunch (oh how I miss thee!)
My cute kindergarteners threw me a (not at all... they blabbed) surprise party, complete with cards, gifts, a BEE themed cake ( I have an obsession), a dozen roses, and squeals of laughter.
But at the end of the day- I still don't like 26.
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I love you friend...you are only as old as you feel they say. I can relate. But you look wonderful and you are wonderful. Your mommy time will come...and when it does, world WATCH OUT! Number 1 mom has finally arrived! :)
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